Wedding Planning FAIL

Most little girls have their wedding planned out from the time they realize what a “wedding” is…ummm, well, I was never really that girl.

Of course I have always dreamed a beautiful wedding, but my engineering brain needed to dream in sequence. It was impossible for me to dream about a wedding without first dreaming of the groom.

I can vividly remember lying in bed in elementary school dreaming about who my husband would be one day. Of course, at that age, he looked a lot like Jesse from Full House, and said things to me like “have mercy”….thankfully, we all grow up…and thankfully, through a series of events I can ONLY give credit to God for, I met and began dating Daniel.

Even after we had dated a few months, and I knew, I wouldn't allow myself to dream of a wedding. I daydreamed of life, being a mother, being a wife, but focusing on wedding details seemed silly and I was afraid thinking about it too much would change my focus from a marriage to a wedding before I was even engaged.

Regardless, here I am engaged with NO vision for a wedding besides what I have dreamed of all along- who the groom is.

I flipped through an old journal where I had a page dedicated to “Things for My Wedding” in which I had listed scriptures I want read, and songs I want sung…and while this helped, I still have no idea what color goes with what, or what color I even like. Its like I am all the sudden void of any opinion.

Its so sad, and embarrassing.

“So Katelyn, what are your wedding colors going to be? Whats the reception going to be like? Who will come?”

“Well, actually, see, I kind of, FAIL, at being a girl and have thought of NONE of this until now and I really, honestly, have NO idea."

Here is what I know; I KNOW I want the wedding to be Christ centered because oh how I can think of no other word than blessed to describe the past 2 years of my life with Daniel and what it has meant to have a Christ-centered relationship. I KNOW I want people who come to leave feeling blessed from being part of a beautiful celebration. I KNOW I want our campus minister to marry us and my sister to be my maid of honor. I KNOW the colors will not include pink or purple.

Thankfully, Daniel is a very hands-on groom and has spent several evenings flipping through websites and magazines to help me build a vision of a meaningful, elegant, and fun wedding.

It will be a celebration, I KNOW that, even if I don’t know the colors, place, time, or number of guests. ;)

Am I the only one who fails at wedding planning?